The 27th of July(yesterday) was a 27th of July like no other. It started off a another simple day, however things had a huge twist as soon as we got to class (kinda like all these books we've been reading). I sat in class and Kath handed me a black enveloped packaged which had a small message paper clipped to it reading the words: "...because some infinities are bigger than other infinities" and as I opened it, to my HUGE HUGE surprise, it had the words 'MARVEL' imprinted on the casing. I turned it over to find a watch. Yes, A WATCH!! Like John Mayer and his huge obsession with watches (along with his huge collection and fact that he can tell you what kind of watch you have on just by looking at it), I grew to appreciate all sorts of watches. Simple ones to very very odd ones, but to get a watch from her was very... Well, I'll think of an adjective first.

It'a an early Friday morning. Rain falling hard. The sight of water dripping at every corner that the liquid deems worthy of being dripped from. Upon opening the blue and white of the famous social media of our generation, I suddenly had a light urge to click on the profile of the woman I'm dearly in love with. The pictures caught my eye, so I took a few seconds to grab a chair and... perhaps  the right term would be reminisce or linger on the journey we both took in our lives individually. Pictures of times from a mere two years ago, seemed to paint out as a lifetime. Smiles, body movements, dreams and all that comes with being an adolescent kid, they all changed up to this very moment. I cannot stress this enough of how I still smile at the fact that I have her beside me. It's almost as if you were out walking on a sunny day and you just sat and prayed for a miracle and God gave it to you, only after you worked and proved what you had to. Fight the battles you need to, regardless of whether you win or lose, but accept the final judgement.


Our story is not one for novels or storybooks, it's simply for us to know and feel it all. We do not boast or flaunt what we have. We humble ourselves to each other, but most of all to others and to Him. Looking back at it all, we smile; we smile and say 'The road was more than just bumpy, there was no road. We had to make one to get here,' and by golly, that we did. That we did. So dear, as you read this, don't forget to remember how we got here, because I think all the laughs, smiles, tears, walks, talks, calls, text messages, PMs, DMs, tweets and eye contact were all meant to boil down to this, and my dear, again, I cannot stress this enough to you and to others that, it.Was. All. Worth. It. Thanks...

She's a happy kid, and I plan to keep it that way.

It's raining. Yeah, it makes one wonder about the simple works of nature. Here's how it works, the sun evaporates the water from the earth, it condenses into clouds, when it becomes heavy it falls as rain. Why I'm blogging about this? It's all because we take a lot of things for granted. Go ahead, look back at your today, did you take something for granted? 


Yeah, thought so. 


I guess we're all guilty of this at one point in our life, but don't haste, we are only human. Never be afraid to admit you're human. Your scars and mistakes are your best teachers, and remember with the educational system we're getting these days, we should be happy for the education we get from them. Look at the mirror in your room(we all have one) and then tell that person staring at you this "Look, my mind and heart may be saying a lot of stuff and there are times I get pummeled to the ground by doubts and fears, but heck, I am not giving up. I ain't giving up for me, for the people I love, for my dreams, for my nation, for Him, in retrospect, I am never gonna give up. I will control it all, even the spontaneously planned, expected surprises, fake realities and all the ironies in life. Time to get real."


Done? Brilliant. Now you're ready to face the world. By the way, it's a Sunday, a day of rest. Make sure to tell the people, who have done nothing but worked to make sure you get what you deserve, thank you. Thank you for always believing in you but most importantly, for loving you regardless of what you do, did, or will do. If they're beside you hug them, kiss them, buy them a gift or something. At least you'll know that, you never wasted a day, because you spent every day loving them and making sure they know that :) 

I'll be honest, even after exactly 2 years and 9 months, I still look at her like it's the first time I've laid eyes on her. Her eyes, her smile, her hair, her cute button nose, left dimple and freckle, her hands, her watch on her right hand, I mean, I still look at it all like it's all new to me. It steals my breath how much I smile just by looking at her. I look at stars and see them moving, they actually seem like they're dancing. The wind whispers her name every time it blows and when the rain falls, it reminds us that a simple phone call or text or way of communicating will help warm you up on the inside to get you through the cold weather. I guess it's safe to say these are the realities that poems and novels seem to be made of. With a reality like this, who needs dreams.

“What else? She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her" - Fault in our stars

This is probably going to be one of the fastest posts I will ever have as I will do a practice we learned in CCC (Cross Cultural Communication) called Free writing, and so here I go. Love. I think I've had numerous posts about the subject, but there will definitely be something different about this one. I think one of the most important aspects of love is expression. Expression. That one simple word of high fortitude in the midst of all its meaning that can really dumbfound a person, even at his optimal train of thought and being an academic 'Hercules'. Expression is definitely one of the most abstract and non abstract elements on this planet.


We talk mostly of love that we have encountered in fairy tales, in movies, novels and all the media hype that's been given to us, but in retrospect, REAL LOVE is merely the simplest feelings that make one feel as complex as the unexplained theory in physics to finally understand the secrets of our universe. Why? Have you ever wondered why we love? Is it because of the norm that society has instilled in us? Is it the fault of religion? The fault of government? I blame no one and nothing, because we are all guilty of loving LOVE. It is a something that we are nothing without. The one that is shared between twos, threes, fours etc. A truth that sets us free from the lies. A reality that will seem better than a dream. A feeling that will linger in your thoughts.


Ask me again, why do we love? Simple, because we need to. You will look at that one person and say "I need you. Not physically, not emotionally, I just need you as you. I need you to remind me that being alive means to love with reason and without. I need you to show me the sunset and the sunrise at the same time. I need you to show me the beautiful colors that reside in the black and whites of life. I need you."


Tell them now, "I need you."

"Say hello to good times" - Futures by Jimmy Eat World


I never really knew what that meant, but I guess it's nice not knowing sometimes. I would like to believe that when it comes to planning a future, not knowing maybe an ally, but still, sometimes you need assurance. No one wants to be a failure, but doesn't failing mean we are constantly reminded of our stand on this planet as human beings? Simultaneously, reminding us that making mistakes are meant to teach us. Lately, I've been learning of the importance of being honest to yourself; express without limits because limiting yourself in expression is almost like lying to yourself. Never hold back your 'I love you's or 'I miss you's and 'I need you's; always think of "Now or never" because chances for real happiness don't usually knock twice, but still, always give second chances to others, if they deserve it of course.


Before you head to bed, or end the day with a hot drink, grab your phone, call, text or tweet that one person who really makes you look at the ceiling, thoughtless, at night while waiting for dawn to peek through your window, because all you really want to tell them is "Come on over, because I need you." Go. I'll wait. Believe me, needing someone doesn't make you weak, it makes you real, honest and sincere. Acknowledge that, instead of sleeping with your phone on your chest, hand or under your pillow, try to sleep with a smile. 


Remember: Now or never.