Since I don't have a gift so I'm dedicating this post for Siti Nurul Atirah Bte. Hj. Mohd from Brunei Darussalam. A great person, a listener, an open minded girl and most of all an important person to me. I remember meeting here back during my high school dancing days. She was just some girl in the group, but then all of us started to get to know her better, thus striking out the "strangers" title with each other. Although, 2009 proved to make our friendship to a higher level, she became... a sister, someone I would share things and never be afraid to open up. We both had our own issues, so we'd always share them over dinner and talk for hours or so... Those were the days, but we promised we'd do it again when I get back. I don't have to tell you all how great she is, but take my word for it, she's great. Amazing. You should meet her, and please don't judge her by the way she looks, cause she's more than that, much much more. :) Well, I owe her a good present, so Tee, just consider this a pre-gift heh~ Have a great one, I'm sure you'll have an awesome day!!! Bye... Godbless you, Tee...

The world was once green
Then it faded in the sunrise
Now we too face the sun.
But the truth is
We are all just as green as we once were

Because green are the secrets on your tongue
And a whisper between friends
Green is the colour your eyes bled while we lay on the ocean
And the echo of a ripple etched onto your wall
Green is the knife that stabbed into flesh on a dew skidded morning
Green is when the sun finally cleared the mountain after hours of waiting.
And we found we were only deeper in shadow

Green is like blue only not
With a hint of yellow
It is the fingerprint of the dead pressed to our cheek
And the morning when I wake to find myself alone
Green are the chains that hold us down while we fight to turn from the earth
Green is the blood we let slip from between our rancid lips
And the lies we use to shield our eyes
Green is the silence that falls after a child’s cry for help

Green is the smoke that curls up from a dyeing cigarette butt
And the shock the covered your face
Green is the dark hollows under your eyes left from another sleepless night
Your shoes were green when they walked themselves under my messed up bed
And the colour of the whisper that fell from your lips
Green is the dust covering the new way of life
Green is the sky stretching from here to yesterday
Green is the colour of tomorrow
And your eyes as you reach out to meet it

Green by Stormmoon

I finally learned how to put up songs on the blog. So here are a few, do hope you all enjoy it. It's not much but yeah all just for the passion of it. Here's the list:
1) Simplicity

2) Catching snow in the summer

3) The one that got away


PS: Please pardon the fact that it doesn't sound clear nor loud, I only used an acoustic guitar and the laptop, nothing fancy... so yeah... sorry...

P/S: The red star on the right is Mars, tonight is also the night it is visible :)

Once was a good song by Dashboard Confessionals, although, meanings are thrown here and there. I guess I gave this post this title cause today was a day that filled me with the feeling if vindication. Today was an unusual day for me... the first time I was ever late for school. All I did was take a bath, put on th uniform and left quickly. Little did I know, our school was busy with the "Intamurals" it's an inter-college sports competition, so with this plenty of the classes were empty. I thought "I was in a hurry for this??!!" With all these events happening, the other professors didn't even bother to teach, thus we went home early. I actually wanted it to rain today, cause I've been yearning for it since last night, it's only 7pm, I'm still keeping my hopes high. Exams are in two weeks and next weekend our NSTP classes start, that means goodbye weekends, since the classes are on sundays...Hmmm bummer~ but it's serving the community so, hopefully it'll be a good experience. Wel, I'm off readers. Btw, I would like to share some Filipinos who are actually quite famous and I never even knew. Till he sun shine agains...bye...

Ever been torn between two decisions? I have... more than once actually. I think it's just a way for God to keep us empowered although sometimes, I can't help but wonder what we're all made for. It scares me... constantly. It keeps pondering in my mind of what exactly we are to do with our lives. A huge question; a challenge that everyone goes through. Who am I to question Him? Although, I have no doubt in His ways... All I want is a sign... A sign to know where I'm headed and what's this thing people refer to as destiny? My pages aren't done being written, but I already want to read the ending. Patience is something I have, I know I can pull through, but lately, I've been seeing hearing feeling things I can't seem to understand, things I can't read with my naked eyes. It's not bothering my mind as much as it's bothering my heart and my soul. My mind thinks straight but my soul is screaming for an answer to it all. I know we're all meant for so much more...so much... I can never give up even if I wanted to... I was made this way... A man who has a good mind yet always tends to use his heart. A problem or an advantage?? For now, I leave it all to Him... He knows all... and with my humble life I trust Him... I just want to be at peace, to know what I'm meant for... No rush, I'll wait...

Last night was an intense moment. Things happen and people should always have the courage to tell the truth. Anyway, I met a new friend last night, not really met but more of a got to know better. Forgot her full name, but she's called Yan by friends of all ages and races. Another pretty cool person on the face of the earth haha~ I woke up early today to study the Philippine Constitution for a quiz tomorrow, and we went out in our PJs this morning to book for Avatar in 3D. Finally, after a week plus of yearning to watch that show, I can finally boast about watching it. Believe it or not we went there at 11 but 3/4 of the cinema was already booked, luckily there was still a few seats. WOOHHOOOO!!! Alrite, well hopefully this week will have something great to blog about. Take care people...

Today a group of my friends had a talk that mde us all start thinking about what we have nd what we are about to have. It was intense for all of us, I for one felt that it all seemed to make sense in a weird strong right kind of way. Don't you think that the words "I love you" is thrown around too much, people now seem to use it as much as they use the word "man". Is that the value of love these days?? We all agreed that the sacredness and status of love isn't really preserved, it is just a bunch of words people think they know, but even our little group couldn't explain it. Another issue was about makn a choice, as in a really REALLY hard choice. Everyone has to go through making a difficult choice once in their life, it's inevitable. Although, we should always try to look at the big picture in everything we encounter. One of my friends said NEVER EVER jump into a relationship if you don't think there's ever going to be a future with that person, cause once you get into one, commitment and a future is where it's headed. People misunderstand the fact that if you're not gonna be serious and you're only doing it for the sake of just having a relationship, then forget it, cause that relationship is gonna fail for sure. At this age, thinking about this is part of life, we're suppose to think about it, no one's gonna stop us. We all have to know that this is all more than just the spine-tingling moments, the holding hands, the never ending dates... it's much much more. Books movies are all just portraying how simple we wished it all was, but it isn't... welcome to the real world. The conclusion we all had was a few, we had to compromise so that the next time we talked about it, a basis was present. So here they are:

1. ALWAYS ALWAYS REMEMBER, it was God who gave us love, so when you feel it try to be thankful.

2. NEVER be indecisive about anything to do about the commitment in a relationship, cause once you start doubting choices, all of it will start breaking down. In other words, make only one decision and stick to it. Never jump into a relationship if you don't know yourself or you're not ready, cause if the other person is, you'll just break his/her heart.

3. ALWAYS ALWAYS open up to the other person. We found this as the most important, since communication is everything. Don't expect the other to read your mind. It's impossible.

4. NEVER EVER say "I love you" if you don't feel it, cause that makes you seem heartless, and please don't use that as an excuse or a thing to keep something that's not working out attached, cause you're only lying to yourselves.

5. ALWAYS ALWAYS show love, don't say it. The common problem is, people expect the other person to show them love in a way that they wished, but we should try to comprehend and accept whatever it is they give. Always show it when you feel like it, and when it is called for, never hold that back cause the words "I wish I did that, but now I can't" will haunt you.

After our little talk, we all promised that we would always keep each other at bay with these rules. We hope to spread these thoughts with other people that's why I posted it here. We'renot saying we're right, we just hope to help people and open their eyes to the truth so that no one will get hurt and have hearts broken, cause it's never a pretty sight. So, remember to always think about it well before doing anything this vast... always think of your heart and about the truth.

Forgive me for not being around to update the blog for awhile now, I just got back from Brunei yesterday and still pretty tired from it all. I just woke up from a two hour nap, school has not be kind to me at all; grades, subjects and teachers aren't really making it any easier. All I'm hoping for is for things to get better. Before the year ended and I left Brunei again, I lost a few things that I really wish I could have back, but losing something is going to help us prove how that thing is very valuable to us, that we would do anything to get it back and keep it safe. Every tear and pain is part of a bigger picture, but just don't over do it with those elements. The sky here seems to have the same feel, but the oly difference is that you're looking at awesome stars alone, but I'm keeping my head up this time, no more looking down, I have dreams and I need to fulfill them. I also had the unfortunate news of knowing that I won't be able to do the tutoring job, not sure what but neither did any of my other friends. Hopefully if I get to finish my Hws and projects, I'll get a chance to go out and buy DVDs and a few comics, just trying to make this is all good. We had the event of exchanging gifts yesterday, but I only received my gift today, it was an awesome one, it was a special compilation CD/VCD of the late King of Pop, Michael Jackson. Apparently, the person who got my name was Laii, so she got me that album which has 3 in it and was apparently the last one there, plan to listen to it in a bit, classics and music videos to help relive and continue appreciation for him. For now, I'm just gonna be around, casually living my life, I'm gonna be as bold as love this year... just ask the axis... take care... Salut...