As he stood at the edge of the cliff, looking down, down on the waves crashing and weathering the rocks, he saw it, he saw it all. What could one man really do when he all had a future written down... in stone. He almost felt vindicated... he knew one step would end the cacophony in his head of what to say and do. For once, it was only his voice he was hearing. He always wanted to chase his dreams, even though he would lose it all, his dreams always came first. Probably because of all those Disney Movies always talking about dreams and chasing them, but for him, for one brief moment he lost it all... all of it.

It was as if his dreams, which was rock hard, had just turn into sand and slip through his fingers while the wind blew them away and there was nothing he could do but watch. His mind was polluted with gibberish from the mouths of those who hardly know themselves. A shattered dream was one thing he had in his hand... and a piece of paper in the other.

Dusk had just set in; the sun was half way gone. He turned away from the horizon and headed home. Walking along the road was nothing new to him, he's been doing it for nearly half his life, he never really liked to drive anyway. While counting the steps to reach his secure room, there was a letter wedged between the door. He threw his jacket on the bed, sat down and opened the letter sending an aura of mystery to his senses. After opening it, he smelled a very familiar scent, and inside was a picture of him and someone. A friend who he hasn't heard from for a long time, she asked how he was and everything else going on in his life.

After leaving school, he never really talked to anyone and his only friend had to leave as well, so fate wasn't on his side at all. Though, this bright light seemed to illuminate his dark life once again. As he continued skimming the letter, it read" I'm going there tommorow, I heard about you, I need to see you". This made his heart stop; a person from nearly the other side of the globe, wanted to spend time and money just to see him, a person who isn't even sure sbout everything else going on. The next morning he went out to get a tatoo, he felt it would just make more sense that way. It read "7", only he knew what it really meant.

She reached the country, she headed straight for the hospital since the last phonecall she got from him was from there. Eyes were met, and tears started rolling off cheeks. They hugged tightly, a sign of how much they missed each other.
"How are you?? Is it painful??", she asked as she sat beside him, grabbing his hand and holding it close to her heart.
"A little. They said I have seven days left. I still can't believe you flew here just for this. Sorry for the burden", he said in a calm low voice as he was lying on his bed.

Then after morning came, she had to walk out the Cancer ward to get more clothes since winter came early that year. He just stayed and waited... humming to John Mayer's "Gravity".

The last exam yesterday were good. The only time I actually felt good in a filipino subject, but then again who am I to say I even did good at all. After school, the group spent Genie's birthday in advance, since some of us won't be around. Had lunch in Shakeys and actually had a little more than we coukd finish. Laii bought her a cake... well a cupcake to be more specific. As usual as our outings, we had a laugh and talks, another typical great day for us. As we all headed our seperate ways, we had a huge hug, we were all going back to provinces, so a part of us was already sad and we all knew it. Meanwhile, as I got back me, my aunt and my cousin went to the Mall of Asia to watch a huge fireworks display. Truth is there always is a fireworks show but this one was "special" since Christmas was just around the corner. I tried to get a tatoo as well, although I realised I don't think I'm cool enough to pull that off. I mean after all, I'm no Kid Rock haha~

Well, I'm guessing today's gonna be simple but hopefully good, cause nothing says greatness like simplicity in everything. The Killers are gonna be here on January 31st, hope to get tickets early :) Looking forward for that at least can try to make me Mr.Brightside... It was the Simpsons' birthday yesterday, first time they were ever on air. Happy Birthday to them!! D'oh!! I also came across a really sad book lately, which was really relative at a point. Guy fights war in another country, girl waits, guy's sick and the end was the guy was in the hospital bed. In a way, books really are pages of other peoples lives that someone wrote down so others would relate and maybe learn how to go ahead with everything else. Take Care people... Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all...

A few days ago I was watching John Mayer on Sesame Street along with Queen Latifah talking about how soldiers are heavily affected on wars they fight, especially those in Iraq and other major wars the world, unfortunately, is facing. So I figured in honor of the soldiers fighting wars these days and are still having a hard time and also for those who have came home but still can't sleep at night, I wrote them a song. After I learn how to post songs/mp3s here on the blog, I'll post it. I wrote it a few days ago, and called it "Army Wives", this song means alot to me, seeing that alot of people are K.I.A in wars, but it's most hard on people who are waiting for us. I hope to post this on "Youtube" as an original song and also as a tribute to the brave men all over the world. I'll upload another post to let you know if it's already viewable at the site, if I make success with any of my songs first few bucks I make, most probably would go to a charity for Cancer and AIDS. Support the world, fight Difficulties with music :) take care beloved people...

So Christmas is 19 days away, but it's really cold here especially at night. It reaches up to nearly 18degrees celsius, so if you plan to go out take a jacket with you. I usually wake up early to go to school, by the time the train reaches school, around 6+, I start my walk and it is freezing early morning. Whenever I walk in the morning, feeling cold, it makes me miss having someone to hold, to keep me warm while on my way to another day. The spirit here is really really alive, discounts and stuff, so shopping is really on everyones list. I'm actually planning to buy a toy as well heh~ Toys here are quite awesome.
These are a few of the toys that really caught my eye, it costs like 700pesos, thats after discount so thats awesome. These are actually Transformers cross-overs with Marvel Heroes, cool eh?? My friends all ask whats with me and toys these days, I just simply answered I guess after really learning to appreciate beauty and awesome-ness (heh~) , colecting toys is really inevitable. Well, I'm not yet sure how I'm gonna be celebrating the grand day, hope it'll be good. Well, we have a quiz on the Philippines Constitution, it's actually a fun subject... if we actually learn about the constitution, all we do is learn about the fundamentals of political science hmmm~ well, I just hope it turns out better after the holidays. Take care people... keep your days bright...

Today was... well, not sure if I really have the words to explain. I can't say it was good, but it was worth blogging heh~ Well, we had no last period because apparently today is the so-called "Birthday" of my course and there's gonna be celebrations up till Monday, and we're also class-less on Monday. So todays event was actually very small but all cool. There was a little exhibition in one of our halls(proving we have tons of halls heh~), it was mostly about the countries of the languages which we have to learn for 4 semesters. These included France, Spain, China and Japan. There was food and pictures. Spain had Churro, it was like the Spanish version of the Doughnut, it was sweet cause you had to dip it into chocolate or vanilla hmmm~~ next was France,with their famous French bread. Japan, well of course Sushi was nearby, but they also offered Milk tea, which was pleasant. I enjoyed China, they had a little sweet thing, can't remember what it was called, but it was sticky. Then they wre burning incense, and they said we could make a wish by lighting one then nodding while saying your wish. When I did mine, the girl was like "Hey, you don't have to nod alot, three times is enough" haha~ then I said," Ohh, I thought keep nodding till the thing is finished". We just laughed.

Most of the students at the booths were our seniors. Well, after that I had to go to Makati to fix a few documents and also change the coat I bought, it was a tat too big for me heh~ (signs of shrinking body mass haha) Then I thought of walking into "toys r us", seeing as Christmas was coming, toys were surely on sale. I saw these awesome toys where marvel superheroes are crossovered with Transformers pretty cool...heh~ Well, thats my day... nothing much, just waiting for exams to end... Take Care... Salut

I got an email today... It was soo simple but it really made me feel everything she wanted... Amazing how she does that... I just wan to take this moment to appreciate an amzing part of my life. I haven't talked to her in weeks, but still it felt like eons ago. I miss her so much... They're all on holidays now till next year, while I still have exams to come hmmm~ still have a long way to go. I miss how we always end each other's sentences, and how we never care about what others think, we just enjoy it all. It bites being alone at times, I have great friends here, but a person can't refrain from missing that one person who seems to know every strand on your hair, your little details and even the way you walk. She was always the first and the last one I would talk to about almost anything. In retrospect, I think God really put great people in your life, all you gotta do is open eyes and see them smiling brightly in front of you.

She sent me another email saying she's been on an honor roll, man, I'm just really proud of that girl. She really deserves the best everything. Brighton University in U.K was her choice for an advance education, haven't really heard any updates about that but hopefully she still gets a shot at getting in. I pray for that. Besides her unbelievable intelligence, she has such a soft side for humour. Other people find my humuor different, especially if you don't know me, but with her, all i have to say is "Hey, I have a joke..." and the laughing starts right there. One thing I don't appreciate, is how people would judge her. How can they expect a glass of water to fill up a whole dam? Expectations with the bars raised beyond the skies are always on her shoulders. I just wish everyone would let take a breath as well, she's only human, but remember she's an astonishing glass of water:)

Being that she's destined to climb the stages for awards and recognitions, I always enjoy moments like those especially if I'm watching. I always try my bet to be supportive the way she has been to me. I never told her this, but whenever she gets on stage or does something extravagant, my heart would always be proud and a tear would be shed. To see someone you know and love to be recognized, you can't help but be the loudest person screaming her name, be the loudest one applauding and be the one who shares her glory. I really have to say, she's one o a kind. I remember during one of our PRYNSA days, we were watching a stand up by Chris Rock and I remembe how hard we laughed. The whole team in the bus looked at us as if we were mad, but like I said wehave no regrets :)The rocking on the bus that day was mostly our fault, not the road. Heh~~

I just got back from Makati today, and Ka Siti asked why don't I invite any of my friends over, I said they're too busy and I doubt they'll be allowed. Hearing her ask this really pushed me to go out and take a walk through the dusk, wore my coat and started taking steps. I looked around branded shops, Gucci and Versace... and I came across a shirt saying "little Miss Shopaholic" couldn't stop myself from buying it. There was also a sale on m&m's, so that doubled how much I missed her, tripled as soon as I read her emails. I just hope she's doing good, and I mean in all aspects, life, love and everything else. I can't wait to see her again, to see her open the door when I knock her door, the way she opened the door to our amazing hopefully everlasting friendship, and lead me in. She caught me offguard, but I guess that was part of the huge plan.

Midge, if you're reading this... then you must be reading this haha (FYI, that was a joke heh~)Can't wait to see you bud... Salut... Tu me manques mon ami...

(P.S sorry for the crappy quality, phone is kinda old school~ heh~)

Pretty isn't it? I kept picturing how perfect it would be to just walk around the place holding hands with that special someone... hmmm~ Well, another bonus was a new Mc Donalds opened right below the place so if I'm hungry at 3am, I can just go down and eat, it's open 24hours :) The Christmas spirit is really alive here, I guess it keeps me smiling about how you can really feel it here, but still it's just not the same without people you love... presents may come, but they're nothing compared to people you love... especially when they come in a box heh~ Nene Bini, Aunti Suriyah and Sarah are coming soon, but I can only see them when they come and when exams end, I'll be pretty busy. Well, I bid all my friends and any readers an advanced Merry Christmas :) have a good one this year...