As he stood at the edge of the cliff, looking down, down on the waves crashing and weathering the rocks, he saw it, he saw it all. What could one man really do when he all had a future written down... in stone. He almost felt vindicated... he knew one step would end the cacophony in his head of what to say and do. For once, it was only his voice he was hearing. He always wanted to chase his dreams, even though he would lose it all, his dreams always came first. Probably because of all those Disney Movies always talking about dreams and chasing them, but for him, for one brief moment he lost it all... all of it.

It was as if his dreams, which was rock hard, had just turn into sand and slip through his fingers while the wind blew them away and there was nothing he could do but watch. His mind was polluted with gibberish from the mouths of those who hardly know themselves. A shattered dream was one thing he had in his hand... and a piece of paper in the other.

Dusk had just set in; the sun was half way gone. He turned away from the horizon and headed home. Walking along the road was nothing new to him, he's been doing it for nearly half his life, he never really liked to drive anyway. While counting the steps to reach his secure room, there was a letter wedged between the door. He threw his jacket on the bed, sat down and opened the letter sending an aura of mystery to his senses. After opening it, he smelled a very familiar scent, and inside was a picture of him and someone. A friend who he hasn't heard from for a long time, she asked how he was and everything else going on in his life.

After leaving school, he never really talked to anyone and his only friend had to leave as well, so fate wasn't on his side at all. Though, this bright light seemed to illuminate his dark life once again. As he continued skimming the letter, it read" I'm going there tommorow, I heard about you, I need to see you". This made his heart stop; a person from nearly the other side of the globe, wanted to spend time and money just to see him, a person who isn't even sure sbout everything else going on. The next morning he went out to get a tatoo, he felt it would just make more sense that way. It read "7", only he knew what it really meant.

She reached the country, she headed straight for the hospital since the last phonecall she got from him was from there. Eyes were met, and tears started rolling off cheeks. They hugged tightly, a sign of how much they missed each other.
"How are you?? Is it painful??", she asked as she sat beside him, grabbing his hand and holding it close to her heart.
"A little. They said I have seven days left. I still can't believe you flew here just for this. Sorry for the burden", he said in a calm low voice as he was lying on his bed.

Then after morning came, she had to walk out the Cancer ward to get more clothes since winter came early that year. He just stayed and waited... humming to John Mayer's "Gravity".

The last exam yesterday were good. The only time I actually felt good in a filipino subject, but then again who am I to say I even did good at all. After school, the group spent Genie's birthday in advance, since some of us won't be around. Had lunch in Shakeys and actually had a little more than we coukd finish. Laii bought her a cake... well a cupcake to be more specific. As usual as our outings, we had a laugh and talks, another typical great day for us. As we all headed our seperate ways, we had a huge hug, we were all going back to provinces, so a part of us was already sad and we all knew it. Meanwhile, as I got back me, my aunt and my cousin went to the Mall of Asia to watch a huge fireworks display. Truth is there always is a fireworks show but this one was "special" since Christmas was just around the corner. I tried to get a tatoo as well, although I realised I don't think I'm cool enough to pull that off. I mean after all, I'm no Kid Rock haha~

Well, I'm guessing today's gonna be simple but hopefully good, cause nothing says greatness like simplicity in everything. The Killers are gonna be here on January 31st, hope to get tickets early :) Looking forward for that at least can try to make me Mr.Brightside... It was the Simpsons' birthday yesterday, first time they were ever on air. Happy Birthday to them!! D'oh!! I also came across a really sad book lately, which was really relative at a point. Guy fights war in another country, girl waits, guy's sick and the end was the guy was in the hospital bed. In a way, books really are pages of other peoples lives that someone wrote down so others would relate and maybe learn how to go ahead with everything else. Take Care people... Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all...

A few days ago I was watching John Mayer on Sesame Street along with Queen Latifah talking about how soldiers are heavily affected on wars they fight, especially those in Iraq and other major wars the world, unfortunately, is facing. So I figured in honor of the soldiers fighting wars these days and are still having a hard time and also for those who have came home but still can't sleep at night, I wrote them a song. After I learn how to post songs/mp3s here on the blog, I'll post it. I wrote it a few days ago, and called it "Army Wives", this song means alot to me, seeing that alot of people are K.I.A in wars, but it's most hard on people who are waiting for us. I hope to post this on "Youtube" as an original song and also as a tribute to the brave men all over the world. I'll upload another post to let you know if it's already viewable at the site, if I make success with any of my songs first few bucks I make, most probably would go to a charity for Cancer and AIDS. Support the world, fight Difficulties with music :) take care beloved people...

So Christmas is 19 days away, but it's really cold here especially at night. It reaches up to nearly 18degrees celsius, so if you plan to go out take a jacket with you. I usually wake up early to go to school, by the time the train reaches school, around 6+, I start my walk and it is freezing early morning. Whenever I walk in the morning, feeling cold, it makes me miss having someone to hold, to keep me warm while on my way to another day. The spirit here is really really alive, discounts and stuff, so shopping is really on everyones list. I'm actually planning to buy a toy as well heh~ Toys here are quite awesome.
These are a few of the toys that really caught my eye, it costs like 700pesos, thats after discount so thats awesome. These are actually Transformers cross-overs with Marvel Heroes, cool eh?? My friends all ask whats with me and toys these days, I just simply answered I guess after really learning to appreciate beauty and awesome-ness (heh~) , colecting toys is really inevitable. Well, I'm not yet sure how I'm gonna be celebrating the grand day, hope it'll be good. Well, we have a quiz on the Philippines Constitution, it's actually a fun subject... if we actually learn about the constitution, all we do is learn about the fundamentals of political science hmmm~ well, I just hope it turns out better after the holidays. Take care people... keep your days bright...

Today was... well, not sure if I really have the words to explain. I can't say it was good, but it was worth blogging heh~ Well, we had no last period because apparently today is the so-called "Birthday" of my course and there's gonna be celebrations up till Monday, and we're also class-less on Monday. So todays event was actually very small but all cool. There was a little exhibition in one of our halls(proving we have tons of halls heh~), it was mostly about the countries of the languages which we have to learn for 4 semesters. These included France, Spain, China and Japan. There was food and pictures. Spain had Churro, it was like the Spanish version of the Doughnut, it was sweet cause you had to dip it into chocolate or vanilla hmmm~~ next was France,with their famous French bread. Japan, well of course Sushi was nearby, but they also offered Milk tea, which was pleasant. I enjoyed China, they had a little sweet thing, can't remember what it was called, but it was sticky. Then they wre burning incense, and they said we could make a wish by lighting one then nodding while saying your wish. When I did mine, the girl was like "Hey, you don't have to nod alot, three times is enough" haha~ then I said," Ohh, I thought keep nodding till the thing is finished". We just laughed.

Most of the students at the booths were our seniors. Well, after that I had to go to Makati to fix a few documents and also change the coat I bought, it was a tat too big for me heh~ (signs of shrinking body mass haha) Then I thought of walking into "toys r us", seeing as Christmas was coming, toys were surely on sale. I saw these awesome toys where marvel superheroes are crossovered with Transformers pretty cool...heh~ Well, thats my day... nothing much, just waiting for exams to end... Take Care... Salut

I got an email today... It was soo simple but it really made me feel everything she wanted... Amazing how she does that... I just wan to take this moment to appreciate an amzing part of my life. I haven't talked to her in weeks, but still it felt like eons ago. I miss her so much... They're all on holidays now till next year, while I still have exams to come hmmm~ still have a long way to go. I miss how we always end each other's sentences, and how we never care about what others think, we just enjoy it all. It bites being alone at times, I have great friends here, but a person can't refrain from missing that one person who seems to know every strand on your hair, your little details and even the way you walk. She was always the first and the last one I would talk to about almost anything. In retrospect, I think God really put great people in your life, all you gotta do is open eyes and see them smiling brightly in front of you.

She sent me another email saying she's been on an honor roll, man, I'm just really proud of that girl. She really deserves the best everything. Brighton University in U.K was her choice for an advance education, haven't really heard any updates about that but hopefully she still gets a shot at getting in. I pray for that. Besides her unbelievable intelligence, she has such a soft side for humour. Other people find my humuor different, especially if you don't know me, but with her, all i have to say is "Hey, I have a joke..." and the laughing starts right there. One thing I don't appreciate, is how people would judge her. How can they expect a glass of water to fill up a whole dam? Expectations with the bars raised beyond the skies are always on her shoulders. I just wish everyone would let take a breath as well, she's only human, but remember she's an astonishing glass of water:)

Being that she's destined to climb the stages for awards and recognitions, I always enjoy moments like those especially if I'm watching. I always try my bet to be supportive the way she has been to me. I never told her this, but whenever she gets on stage or does something extravagant, my heart would always be proud and a tear would be shed. To see someone you know and love to be recognized, you can't help but be the loudest person screaming her name, be the loudest one applauding and be the one who shares her glory. I really have to say, she's one o a kind. I remember during one of our PRYNSA days, we were watching a stand up by Chris Rock and I remembe how hard we laughed. The whole team in the bus looked at us as if we were mad, but like I said wehave no regrets :)The rocking on the bus that day was mostly our fault, not the road. Heh~~

I just got back from Makati today, and Ka Siti asked why don't I invite any of my friends over, I said they're too busy and I doubt they'll be allowed. Hearing her ask this really pushed me to go out and take a walk through the dusk, wore my coat and started taking steps. I looked around branded shops, Gucci and Versace... and I came across a shirt saying "little Miss Shopaholic" couldn't stop myself from buying it. There was also a sale on m&m's, so that doubled how much I missed her, tripled as soon as I read her emails. I just hope she's doing good, and I mean in all aspects, life, love and everything else. I can't wait to see her again, to see her open the door when I knock her door, the way she opened the door to our amazing hopefully everlasting friendship, and lead me in. She caught me offguard, but I guess that was part of the huge plan.

Midge, if you're reading this... then you must be reading this haha (FYI, that was a joke heh~)Can't wait to see you bud... Salut... Tu me manques mon ami...

(P.S sorry for the crappy quality, phone is kinda old school~ heh~)

Pretty isn't it? I kept picturing how perfect it would be to just walk around the place holding hands with that special someone... hmmm~ Well, another bonus was a new Mc Donalds opened right below the place so if I'm hungry at 3am, I can just go down and eat, it's open 24hours :) The Christmas spirit is really alive here, I guess it keeps me smiling about how you can really feel it here, but still it's just not the same without people you love... presents may come, but they're nothing compared to people you love... especially when they come in a box heh~ Nene Bini, Aunti Suriyah and Sarah are coming soon, but I can only see them when they come and when exams end, I'll be pretty busy. Well, I bid all my friends and any readers an advanced Merry Christmas :) have a good one this year...

Deep regards to a persons heart... does he listen to his heart, or to his conscience? Would you hate a person if he listened to his heart? He tried everything in his power to keep up with everything at bay, to keep his whole life together. The mirror was his only ally in a world unknown to him, he had to be alert, strong and true. Trying to keep up with everything happening is hard work, he's just torn... between two worlds, two lives and two realities.

Look into the distance, and try listening to the wind. Soothing and relieving as it maybe, you can never refrain from thinking about everything that happened and what is happening. Flashes and clips of everything that happened, you feel your whole life playing back and back again after everything that has happened. Your whole mind, body and soul in another reality, in a reality you always wanted to have. The days were all bright, stars seemed to light up the nights and every breathe you take was another breathe for life. Everything that mattered and everyone you loved was there.

In a blink of an eye, everything you had and everything you seemed to held on, disappears into thin air, just like that. If you aren't willing to lose everything, then you just don't want it bad enough. In this humble life we all live, passion and truth is everything, everything you need to keep you sane and alive. When you're on top of the world, you never seem to want to get back down, you want to stay there for eternity, but yet, every time you open your eyes, you're back where you were.

Close your eyes, grasp your heart and listen closely. In every beat, every dub, the truth in what you want and always wanted is encoded in there. All you have to do is try your best to listen, just listen. What does it all mean?? to listen, to understand, to love. Is the universe just a vast space in which our lives continuously moves in? No... I don't agree... We are all the reason why the world even still turns, because we live and believe. Once in your life, you will feel down, and you will look down, but a breeze will push your chin up, and you'll see how bright the skies have gotten.

"Keep me where the light is", as John Mayer put it, even though everything in the world brings you down, including gravity, always keep your head up, the light will illuminate the way you need to take, so keep your strength at bay. When you are torn between paths, I guess just take the one that has really made you happy... happier than imagined. Fame and fortune are probably the last few things that's really gonna make you happy, believe me. Just be sure choices made will be right not just for others, but especially for you... It's your life, be who you wanna be...

My weekends really been a blast. I spent today shopping with Kaka Siti, cause she's going back to Brunei on Friday for Abang Erwans wedding. Bought awesome shirts and I'm off to buy classic comics for only 20pesos=0.99cents haha bargain~ I tried out a super cool leather jacket wowser~~ it made me look like i owned a bike, man, even this girl smiled when I put it on. Unfortunately, it cost's as much as one ticket back to Brunei, haha no comparison. Tomorrow's still a holiday, and we're off to SM Mall of Asia, so hopefully I find something to buy there :) I also want to wish my beloved Muslim friends, Selamat menyambut Hari raya Haji. John Mayer's new album, "Batlle Studies", came out like weeks ago, I've listened to a few, but I'm still just waiting for the album to come out here. The christmas spirit is very much alive here, spending it alone is really colder than any winter season anywhere. Wish Icould spend it with people I love, I'll just keep hoping and praying... take care readers :)

Thursday and friday were days well spent at the cinema. On Thursday, we watched 17 again for only 17 pesos in BND thats 50cents amazing isn't it? heh~ The movie was cool, heh Matthew Perry was there, the good old Chandler actor. Although, Zac Efron was the one mostly on camera. The movie wasn't so bad, it was mainly about not throwing your life away and when given the chance to change it, take it.

Then, yesterday we watched Christmas Carol starring Jim Carrey. It wasn't as good as I expected, it was really just a classic but in 3D. Out of a ten I would just give it a 6. It wasn't so funny but it really does speak deeply. So those were the two movies I had a chance of watching, we have holidays till Tuesday, so I'm off to Makati, kaka Siti just came back :) we're going out again wohooo~ take care people bye... A bientot...

Another day... Yes, everyday here is almost just like another day. School and home are mostly in my schedule everyday, I don't blame anyone, I chose this, so I live with it, but, would it also be my fault if I said that I miss you very much?? So much, that it seems every cloud spelt out your name, every star seemed to remind me of your undenying smile and how every time I'm asleep, I know it's your name I whisper.

Distance is really a huge burden, to almost anyone in a situation like this. Approximately, 751miles away from me. Voulumes and volumes of water to swim across and dense lands to go through, but I would do it, all just for you. I don't think I've ever seen the night sky so dark, I'm guessing it's all just due to the fact that you're not here to light up my nights and to brighten my days. I'm overjoyed hearing how happy you are, doing what ypu've always loved. Seeing you smile like that is really amazing. I don't need to use fancy words to explain you, you already do that yourself. The greatest works of art don't need people to say how beautiful it is, it already knows it.

Your eyes... I miss staring into those beautiful eyes. The way we never seem to plan for something good to happen, the way it always was with us in the first place, up till now. The world isn't round, its an oblate spheroid, and that's how I know, nothing is perfect in our lives... Yeah, that's what I thought as well, till I met you. Plenty of things are always bringing me down, and I constantly find myself on the edge. I'm looking over, but I don't want to jump... I don't want to jump cause when I look behind me, there you are and everything just seems right again. I'm but a simple man, a hopeless romantic at times, but rest assured, every choice I made is for me... and for you... I know it's gonna be all worth it, you're the reason I'm still here and the reason I'm still breathing...

The Red Ribbon is the global symbol for solidarity with HIV-positive people and those living with AIDS.

Kids... youth in general, is a far more complicated issue than one thinks. Phrases and quotes always refer to the youth as "the future of the world", but despite all the positive approaches towards the youth, there are still major problems and obstacles to be leapt over. Education, when one hears the word education, youth is usually the second word to come in mind, but are all of us educated the right way? Unfortunately, no... 2 out of every 3 children in the world don't even make it to a good reading level half their whole life, honestly, they don't deserve that. Every person in this world, young, old, girl or boy has a right to a decent education as the right to live.

It's not late, we can still do our part in helping the world, in general. Monday was a pretty slow day for me, nothing good seemed to be about, but I grabbed the newspaper yesterday and the front page was a young man Efren Penaflorida. Efren is a normal simple man, he has no super powers, but he is a hero. For nearly 12 years now, him and his team of teenagers have put up a decent reading and writing school for those unfortunate kids who can't really afford a good school. They have a unique classroom, mainly because, it's on wheels. They would push around a cart filled with books, pencils and paper for the kids to use. Everything free, including the solid bound of knowledge they receive from Efren and his team.
He grew up theway any Filipino kid would've grown up, in the influence of gangs. High school and elementary alike, are all the places where gangs and other negative social groups begin, kids as young as 7 and 11 would already know how to abuse drugs and steal. This sight is unbearable, but it's not the kids who are to blame, they are just confused, in a crisis caught between what is and what should be. Efren Penaflorida had the vision in his mind, and his heart. He knew it was his calling, his duty as a person to make a change. Gangs would always push him and persuade him to join back then, but Efren knew better, and now he's reached heights no one can ever take away from him. Being awarded The 2009 CNN Heroes Award was a brilliant breathtaking moment for anyone in the world, it shows that even the smallest man in the smallest places are recognized for their service to mankind. Since 1997, a total of 10,000 member have helped over 1,500 kids in the slums. For now,that's still a pretty small number, but imagine the possibilities if we all did help. We are all proud of Efren Penaflorida, he's doing his part... now, it's our turn... :)

Today, as Wikipedia states, is "Father's Day". Apparently it doesn't seem to be felt here in the country, so I want to start. A father. He is human, he has the soul and the heart of any man. He made a child, an offspring... someone who is to make him proud someone he will look up to as well and expect the child to be happy in whatever he does. A father is simply the closest man who you can go to, to ask about life, ocassionally love but mostly when you need warm yet strong protection. He was always the person you never really approached but when you did, you know his warm smile and wise eyes would let you free. He was always the one who knew what to say when it needed to be said., the one who always kept you in the right path, he did it even though he knew it would hurt us at that moment but he knew in the end, we would still be the winners. He knew... he always knew... No one can be anyone without a father, it's hard... despite the dificulties and standards they always set for us, they always seem to be right... yes, it's annoying yet, we still have to admit, they're great at doing it. Even though they walked out the doors, and never came back always remember, they are a part of you... you could hate them, you could love them, but in retrospect, he will always be your father... A man, who when you graduate will shed a tear, and it will be the only one you see because after he sees you succeeding, he'll know he's done his job. He is always gonna be the one who puts up with whatever problem you deal with, whether it's a math problem or a broken heart... So, I hope for all those who get to read this post... please, look your father in the eyes, look through him, grab his hands that have held you time and time again, and tell him the thing that you have to say... always tell him, he's the one who made it all possible in the end... Tell your father you love him and nothing will ever change that... Thank you dad... :)

All fathers are invisible in daytime; daytime is ruled by mothers and fathers come out at night. Darkness brings home fathers, with their real, unspeakable power. There is more to fathers than meets the eye.- Margaret Atwood

New Moon was exceptionally good. We woke up early and caught the 10am show at SM Manila, there were only like 20 people in the cinema so got the best seats :) Well, I have to say it was a good adaptation compared to the 1st, although I have to say it's quite a cliff hanger, but hope you all enjoy watching it... graphics were quite good and Dakota Fanning looks really matured now haha~ We had to go to school right after the movie, we learned that NSTP doesn't start till next year so wohooo~ Take care people... salut...