Deep regards to a persons heart... does he listen to his heart, or to his conscience? Would you hate a person if he listened to his heart? He tried everything in his power to keep up with everything at bay, to keep his whole life together. The mirror was his only ally in a world unknown to him, he had to be alert, strong and true. Trying to keep up with everything happening is hard work, he's just torn... between two worlds, two lives and two realities.

Look into the distance, and try listening to the wind. Soothing and relieving as it maybe, you can never refrain from thinking about everything that happened and what is happening. Flashes and clips of everything that happened, you feel your whole life playing back and back again after everything that has happened. Your whole mind, body and soul in another reality, in a reality you always wanted to have. The days were all bright, stars seemed to light up the nights and every breathe you take was another breathe for life. Everything that mattered and everyone you loved was there.

In a blink of an eye, everything you had and everything you seemed to held on, disappears into thin air, just like that. If you aren't willing to lose everything, then you just don't want it bad enough. In this humble life we all live, passion and truth is everything, everything you need to keep you sane and alive. When you're on top of the world, you never seem to want to get back down, you want to stay there for eternity, but yet, every time you open your eyes, you're back where you were.

Close your eyes, grasp your heart and listen closely. In every beat, every dub, the truth in what you want and always wanted is encoded in there. All you have to do is try your best to listen, just listen. What does it all mean?? to listen, to understand, to love. Is the universe just a vast space in which our lives continuously moves in? No... I don't agree... We are all the reason why the world even still turns, because we live and believe. Once in your life, you will feel down, and you will look down, but a breeze will push your chin up, and you'll see how bright the skies have gotten.

"Keep me where the light is", as John Mayer put it, even though everything in the world brings you down, including gravity, always keep your head up, the light will illuminate the way you need to take, so keep your strength at bay. When you are torn between paths, I guess just take the one that has really made you happy... happier than imagined. Fame and fortune are probably the last few things that's really gonna make you happy, believe me. Just be sure choices made will be right not just for others, but especially for you... It's your life, be who you wanna be...

My weekends really been a blast. I spent today shopping with Kaka Siti, cause she's going back to Brunei on Friday for Abang Erwans wedding. Bought awesome shirts and I'm off to buy classic comics for only 20pesos=0.99cents haha bargain~ I tried out a super cool leather jacket wowser~~ it made me look like i owned a bike, man, even this girl smiled when I put it on. Unfortunately, it cost's as much as one ticket back to Brunei, haha no comparison. Tomorrow's still a holiday, and we're off to SM Mall of Asia, so hopefully I find something to buy there :) I also want to wish my beloved Muslim friends, Selamat menyambut Hari raya Haji. John Mayer's new album, "Batlle Studies", came out like weeks ago, I've listened to a few, but I'm still just waiting for the album to come out here. The christmas spirit is very much alive here, spending it alone is really colder than any winter season anywhere. Wish Icould spend it with people I love, I'll just keep hoping and praying... take care readers :)

Thursday and friday were days well spent at the cinema. On Thursday, we watched 17 again for only 17 pesos in BND thats 50cents amazing isn't it? heh~ The movie was cool, heh Matthew Perry was there, the good old Chandler actor. Although, Zac Efron was the one mostly on camera. The movie wasn't so bad, it was mainly about not throwing your life away and when given the chance to change it, take it.

Then, yesterday we watched Christmas Carol starring Jim Carrey. It wasn't as good as I expected, it was really just a classic but in 3D. Out of a ten I would just give it a 6. It wasn't so funny but it really does speak deeply. So those were the two movies I had a chance of watching, we have holidays till Tuesday, so I'm off to Makati, kaka Siti just came back :) we're going out again wohooo~ take care people bye... A bientot...

Another day... Yes, everyday here is almost just like another day. School and home are mostly in my schedule everyday, I don't blame anyone, I chose this, so I live with it, but, would it also be my fault if I said that I miss you very much?? So much, that it seems every cloud spelt out your name, every star seemed to remind me of your undenying smile and how every time I'm asleep, I know it's your name I whisper.

Distance is really a huge burden, to almost anyone in a situation like this. Approximately, 751miles away from me. Voulumes and volumes of water to swim across and dense lands to go through, but I would do it, all just for you. I don't think I've ever seen the night sky so dark, I'm guessing it's all just due to the fact that you're not here to light up my nights and to brighten my days. I'm overjoyed hearing how happy you are, doing what ypu've always loved. Seeing you smile like that is really amazing. I don't need to use fancy words to explain you, you already do that yourself. The greatest works of art don't need people to say how beautiful it is, it already knows it.

Your eyes... I miss staring into those beautiful eyes. The way we never seem to plan for something good to happen, the way it always was with us in the first place, up till now. The world isn't round, its an oblate spheroid, and that's how I know, nothing is perfect in our lives... Yeah, that's what I thought as well, till I met you. Plenty of things are always bringing me down, and I constantly find myself on the edge. I'm looking over, but I don't want to jump... I don't want to jump cause when I look behind me, there you are and everything just seems right again. I'm but a simple man, a hopeless romantic at times, but rest assured, every choice I made is for me... and for you... I know it's gonna be all worth it, you're the reason I'm still here and the reason I'm still breathing...

The Red Ribbon is the global symbol for solidarity with HIV-positive people and those living with AIDS.

Kids... youth in general, is a far more complicated issue than one thinks. Phrases and quotes always refer to the youth as "the future of the world", but despite all the positive approaches towards the youth, there are still major problems and obstacles to be leapt over. Education, when one hears the word education, youth is usually the second word to come in mind, but are all of us educated the right way? Unfortunately, no... 2 out of every 3 children in the world don't even make it to a good reading level half their whole life, honestly, they don't deserve that. Every person in this world, young, old, girl or boy has a right to a decent education as the right to live.

It's not late, we can still do our part in helping the world, in general. Monday was a pretty slow day for me, nothing good seemed to be about, but I grabbed the newspaper yesterday and the front page was a young man Efren Penaflorida. Efren is a normal simple man, he has no super powers, but he is a hero. For nearly 12 years now, him and his team of teenagers have put up a decent reading and writing school for those unfortunate kids who can't really afford a good school. They have a unique classroom, mainly because, it's on wheels. They would push around a cart filled with books, pencils and paper for the kids to use. Everything free, including the solid bound of knowledge they receive from Efren and his team.
He grew up theway any Filipino kid would've grown up, in the influence of gangs. High school and elementary alike, are all the places where gangs and other negative social groups begin, kids as young as 7 and 11 would already know how to abuse drugs and steal. This sight is unbearable, but it's not the kids who are to blame, they are just confused, in a crisis caught between what is and what should be. Efren Penaflorida had the vision in his mind, and his heart. He knew it was his calling, his duty as a person to make a change. Gangs would always push him and persuade him to join back then, but Efren knew better, and now he's reached heights no one can ever take away from him. Being awarded The 2009 CNN Heroes Award was a brilliant breathtaking moment for anyone in the world, it shows that even the smallest man in the smallest places are recognized for their service to mankind. Since 1997, a total of 10,000 member have helped over 1,500 kids in the slums. For now,that's still a pretty small number, but imagine the possibilities if we all did help. We are all proud of Efren Penaflorida, he's doing his part... now, it's our turn... :)

Today, as Wikipedia states, is "Father's Day". Apparently it doesn't seem to be felt here in the country, so I want to start. A father. He is human, he has the soul and the heart of any man. He made a child, an offspring... someone who is to make him proud someone he will look up to as well and expect the child to be happy in whatever he does. A father is simply the closest man who you can go to, to ask about life, ocassionally love but mostly when you need warm yet strong protection. He was always the person you never really approached but when you did, you know his warm smile and wise eyes would let you free. He was always the one who knew what to say when it needed to be said., the one who always kept you in the right path, he did it even though he knew it would hurt us at that moment but he knew in the end, we would still be the winners. He knew... he always knew... No one can be anyone without a father, it's hard... despite the dificulties and standards they always set for us, they always seem to be right... yes, it's annoying yet, we still have to admit, they're great at doing it. Even though they walked out the doors, and never came back always remember, they are a part of you... you could hate them, you could love them, but in retrospect, he will always be your father... A man, who when you graduate will shed a tear, and it will be the only one you see because after he sees you succeeding, he'll know he's done his job. He is always gonna be the one who puts up with whatever problem you deal with, whether it's a math problem or a broken heart... So, I hope for all those who get to read this post... please, look your father in the eyes, look through him, grab his hands that have held you time and time again, and tell him the thing that you have to say... always tell him, he's the one who made it all possible in the end... Tell your father you love him and nothing will ever change that... Thank you dad... :)

All fathers are invisible in daytime; daytime is ruled by mothers and fathers come out at night. Darkness brings home fathers, with their real, unspeakable power. There is more to fathers than meets the eye.- Margaret Atwood

New Moon was exceptionally good. We woke up early and caught the 10am show at SM Manila, there were only like 20 people in the cinema so got the best seats :) Well, I have to say it was a good adaptation compared to the 1st, although I have to say it's quite a cliff hanger, but hope you all enjoy watching it... graphics were quite good and Dakota Fanning looks really matured now haha~ We had to go to school right after the movie, we learned that NSTP doesn't start till next year so wohooo~ Take care people... salut...

These events happened before I even started the blog, so that's why I just want to acknowledge how great these were.

The first was the outreach program we had for the "Rizal" project, where we had to go to go to an old folks home and try to supply them food and try to entertain them. We had a long drive riding in the bus which started from school, the bus was really really packed and the drive there was really soothing and calm so a nap really came about easily.

The day was really filled with events and all sorts of happenings, so could the day be more tiring... First had a super great English class with Prof.Alfredo he showed us a few portfolios of previous students as an example of what he expects from us, and then we had a really long discussion about the meaning of "skills" which lead to whole other topics hahaha~~ hilarious how we were trying to trace back how we ended up in talking about relationships. After that most of my classmates had to go to the 'Mini theatre' to be awarded and acknowledged for being in the "Dean's list", big congratulations to them :) and while they were gone the rest of us stayed in class and we met a Humanities professor, who was really super cool and mellow, he explained his love for the arts in a way unexplainable to me, he was Prof.Warto. His parents named him that cause he was born during World War Two, and amazingly he was on the back cover of the textbook we're suppose to use, haha we were all dumbfounded when he showed it to us, never met an author of a textbook face to face heh~ Hopefully tomorrow promises for more bright events and unforgettable experiences... Keep smiling... :)